PSA: DON'T A.S.S.U.M.E ~ U know me.. but you don't KNOW me.. k?

 "A.S.S.U.M.E When you ASSUME you make an ASS out of U and not ME"

So, everyone connected to me should know a lil bit about me by now.. understands that I'm gonna give it to you 100 period.. it could hurt me.. it could hurt you.. of course that is never my intention unless specified..:) With that being said.. I have been in the virtual world long enough to understand that if you post anything on any social network it is up scrutiny. Depending on how the reader is feeling that day, feeling about you, or whatever... what you write can be taken out of context.. and you have to be prepared for it.. good and bad..

I learned that the hard way with someone I THOUGHT was a friend reposting a private im conversation about me being attacked on a website just so that they could prove some crazy point. That was a really big lesson for me and I learned from it..

With that being said.. I'm not suprised at all with the comments and messages I've been getting lately.. but I have to say today.. was comical..  So..  because I say GOD FORGIVE ME.. a few people felt that they were close enough to me.. to send me messages like..  what you do? ... or to send me their OPINION about what they THOUGHT I did..

*_*...  Ok.. first.. I said GOD forgive me.. Not FB... If I am saying ALOUD that I have done things in my lifetime that I need to be forgiven for.. what in that says that I am obligated to tell YOU.. Like IMMEDIATELY I got.. Whatchu doing ? What you DO?  *_*

NONE OF YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS MUTHAFUCA...

It's kinda like how people post a stat that says.. "You get on my dayum nerves".. People *INSTANTLY* ASSUME that it is directed toward them. If your name wasn't called.. why are you getting upset? Maybe it's because you have a done something or said something that you thought you got away with.. I don't know.. But as my boy Brod says.. until your name is called.. STFU..

Back to my statement.. I called a name.. Definitely.. and I don't think ANYONE on my list is named GOD.. therefore.. you shouldn't feel OBLIGATED to know what I am asking for forgiveness FOR? Only One person (Jt) was bold enough to ask me openly.. but here's the difference with him and the others.. I talk to Jt all the time. We are friends beyond facebook.. So he like another friend since high school have more access to my personal life.. my friends, my family, my kids.. if you don't know what my middle name is.. or even CLOSE to how to say it.. or if you weren't there with me.. when things got really hard.. Stop bogartin'.. keep it movin...

Now, the next thing that I need to address so that we are CLEAR.. My blog about the person that makes my life worth living.. my BFF Carlos.. was not a confession. *pure Comedy* He is not my *OTHER* man.. he is my BFF.. Truth be told he was here long before MY SOON TO BE HUSBAND*.. and they are great friends. There is no hidden adgenda between us.. there is nothing going on between us.. A Man and a WOman can be friends without there being some SIDEWAYS shit going on.. Stop WISHING for drama.. if that's what you are in my space for... Keep it moving.. but GROW THE HELL UP while you at it..

This seems to be a growing problem with the social networking sites.. People *always* want to  HOPE for the worst.. and it's the craziest thing EVER.. How about wish for the good stuff.. and if it turns out to be bad.. be SUPPORTIVE..
                              HURT PEOPLE *HURT* PEOPLE..
If you have nothing but hateraid, jealously, envy and foolishness running through your DNA.. do EVERYONE a favor and just go away. Why are you even SOCIAL? Like, know your own self.. I know when I am feeling evil.. it's best that I just get away from people.. Maybe that's what you should do.. cause someone may not be AS nice as I was ... You might get a knock on ya door..

Bottomline.. get to KNOW yourself.. and know what your role in a person's life is.. Don't overstep.. Stay in ya Lane.. I don't even know what else to say but.. stop thinking you are ALLOWED to know every detail of a person's life just because you are on their friends' list.. Truth be told.. you are only there because they were friends with someone they BARELY knew and yo ass snuck in the back door.. So don't get it in your head that you are OWED anything because you are FACEBOOK FRIENDS...

Don't say I didn't warn ya, playa..

Day 11: Follow me ...

hmmm.. the thing I get complimented on the most lately... is my walk.


I don't exactly know what to say about it.. But.. I have a good one obviously.. because I have been selected to walk in several fashion shows over the past year. THEFashion Show was the first time I had really *WALKED* in well over a decade. Stephaine Love is who I thank for that. Because of the opportunity she gave me to walk in THEFashion .. I was later selected to audition for the ROCK THE RUNWAY Fashion show for Radar Magazine.   I was soo nervous because, just like with THEFashion Show, there were so many super thin, super YOUNG, beautiful girls trying out.. They could walk in these ridiculously high heels.. and wear just about anything you put on them.. And here I am.. short cut, thick waistline, bad knees.. hahaaa..

but hell.. I was there so .. no turning back now right..

I walk in.. and there is Steph with that.. * Get em Girl* look on her face.. They put on some music with this lil Ipod thingy.. and Usher's OMG came on... I just gave it to em.. if they liked it .. they liked it.. if not.. at least I tried right...  Well little did I know that I was being judged by one of the hottest new designers out ... J.Bolin.. I did my walk and waited for THE CALL.  The day that we were suppose to get them.. I didn't get one.. I was disappointed because I thought I did pretty good.. but I was thinking that my weight and over all LOOK ...knocked me out of the running... It was cool.. I was happy for any of the girls who would receive calls..  I ain't no hater..

But the next morning.. my phone rang.. I said hello... and the person on the other end started talking.. about the show.. I thought they were calling to tell me thanks but no thanks.. Instead.. they told me that they were following my stat on FB where I said I didn't get the call..and I was a lil sad..  Mr. J asked me how I thought I did.. and I said I thought I did well.. and he said... we did TOO.. that's  why you are in the show... I really tried to keep my cool.. but I think I lost some points... In the parking lot of the drug store in front of the police.. on the phone... driving... jumping up and down in my seat... Lucky that I didn't get a ticket.. *doing WAY too Much*

Well.. when we had the fitting.. I went out in the hall to walk again for some designers.. but unfortunately.. I was bigger than most of the girls so there wasn't alot of things for me to wear.. I only had 2 outfits but.. *F.. It.. I was gonna still WORK *

We get to the show and there is J.Bolin.. He was such a nice guy.. But he walked up to me and said.. " I know you ... you got a BAD walk.. why didn't I see you last night for a fitting.. you don't wanna wear my clothes?" He was joking but totally serious and I think that was the BEST compliment I had received in my life.. This man has designed clothes for grammy award winning artist, models, you name it..  and here he was standing next to me.. asking me to wear one of his designs.. *FLOORED*.. He is the nicest guy.. and everyone in his camp is.. just down to Earth good people.. so it meant alot to me for him to say that..

A few minutes later.. his assistant said.. J would like to see you in the back.. I think I beat HER back there.. We talked about me being a plus size model and there not being anything really for me to wear.. and he stopped me and said.. You have a bad walk.. it doesn't matter WHAT size you are.. but please do not refer to yourself as PLUS SIZE anymore .. You are SIZE SEXY... hear me?... :)

yep.. Loud and clear...



His compliment.. made a world of difference to me.. He probably doesn't even remember me at all but I will never forget HIM..

Thanks J. Bolin..

Walkin my WALK.... :)