Randomness: I don't like FISH

I've had this on my mind for a long time now yet I never really blogged about it.. But I need to talk about FAKE FRIENDS and the Bitches that love them..  It's so funny to me how someone can SAY you are family and they will love you thru thick and thin and then a man comes in the picture and ALL that flies right out the damn window.  I knew from the beginning that this friendship would be trouble because of the simpleness displayed in previous relationships and friendships. But I threw caution to the wind and befriended someone who was never really my friend to begin with.. She only wanted to live her life through my past.  I hate when people haven't been through anything and they think that YOUR experiences.. no matter how painful..are just the greatest thing ever. It's always a damn man.. why? and moreover an UNAVAILABLE man.. that seems to break up these seemingly super strong sisterhoods with bonds so strong that even GOD can't break..  Really?  How easily we forget.
 I hate being accused of things that I haven't done.. because I always end up doing it just to piss the accuser off. It may be simple to some, however, so is the foolishness that started  the cycle to begin with..

I never really understood why anyone would want to live the life that I have had because it hasn't been a bed of roses.. unless you count the thorns in my side. But I guess it's better to have experienced and suffered than to watch from the sidelines. But if you want all the hurt and pain and tears that have come with my experiences.. be my guest.. you will wish you hadn't..

But back to the randomness... I could never be a lesbian because females get on my damn nerves. And once you fall out.. their FRIENDS.. oh the friends are the funniest of all. They will laugh and ha ha all in your face just to stay in your surroundings just to report what they THINK is going on. People see what they want to see.. so I give them something to look at. I keep telling people that I am not new to this game before I even got in to the field of criminal justice.. I studied PEOPLE. I watched their moves, how they operate, and it's so sad to see them try NOT to be themselves when they know you are on to them. People have patterns and no matter how hard you try.. you return to those patterns no matter what the situation, even me.. My mother told me she could always tell when I was upset because I post a lot of songs.. And she is right.. Music is my life.. it's how I get my feelings out. If I'm sad.. the notes of Classical music brings tears to my eyes.. I cry but through my tears I am able to see things more clearly.. it didn't take my mama long to figure me out .. but then again.. she is a SPECIAL woman.. we share a bond that most people will never understand. I guess that's why I am able to see things the way I see them now.. She trained me up..even after meeting her so late in the game..
But back to the bullshit..  I can tell when people are up to no good.. and it urks me that I have been right about this so many times before and they all of a sudden forget that I have this ability to see thru their bullshit when I have called them on it so many times before. I notice how they tend to pick sides without knowing all the facts. They are easily brainwashed into believing one side more than the other because of one person's perception of the truth..  It's good though because I like feeding the fish..  I throw out lil feelers to get them going kinda like throwing a tiny piece of bread into a pond of goldfish and watch them fight for it.  They Bite everytime... why? Because it's a behavioral pattern. They can't help it..
The funniest part of ALL of this though.. is that the ones that want to AMEN the bullshit.. are the SAME ones who say the EXACT same shit about them behind their backs... It's amazing.. People should know by now that I keep evidence of everything... phone records, emails, pictures, I'm messages.. because you just never know when you will be called to testify on your own behalf.. You need evidence to make your case... that's a fact.

It tickles the hell outta me to see SISTA this and SISTA that.. and you are sooo beautiful inside and out.. until a dick comes swinging by everyone is in a free for all because they are all hard up for some loving. Don't be so obvious.. DAMN!.. There are other men in the world.. seriously.. you just have to not beat them down with all your past bullshit or not fuck them so quickly that you don't TRULY know what they are about until after you are already BLINDED BY THE DICK!..


I don't know.. maybe one day females will get it together and see that there is more to life than DICK.. there are actually females who can be your friend without trying to steal you hopes and fantasies away... why.. because they are living their own dreams.. the problem is.. you are so wrapped up in your own bullshit that you will never realize that the ones you THINK are your friends are usually the ones who will stab you in your back EVERYTIME...

but what do I know... right?








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i was bored.. sue me.. *_*

He's just made of PURE CHAMPION STUFF...

... sigh..

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Am I the only one in ALABAMA or AMERICA for that matter, that doesn't find this Antoine Dodson shit funny. I'm really trying to find a reason to call him a hero.. but as stated in my previous blog.. I think this is a bunch of SUGAR FLAVORED BULLSHIT!..  Call me a hater if you want.. nothing new.. but I can stand alone against.. whoever and whatever.. But I really think this whole thing is ignorant as hell. So, Antoine was just on a radio show here in my city.. and they are talking about a song that these guys made with his autotune.. The song is kinda catchy.. I won't lie.. But so is the ALPHABET.. Youare being played and not even getting paid for THAT one..

The definition of a hero in the dictionary is ~a man distinguished by exceptional courage and nobility and strength~This dude is being called a HERO and he is trying to make money off someone trying to ATTACK his sister. I am a survivor of a Rape.. not an attempt but the real deal.. and if my brother did this shit.. I would disown his ass before he could blink his dayum eyes. How dare you try to gain profit off something so terrifying. If you were really concerned about your sister and her well being.. you would be protecting her.. and your family from the limelight not doing promotions..

I haven't heard him say ONE thing about finding this dude since the Youtube stuff came out.. He has done videos, ringtones, interviews, but not ONE update on the person who *alledgedly* tried to rape your sister. I did, HOWEVER, hear him say that he has a link on his Facebook page or one of his pages.. where you can donate MONEY to HIM.. to help move his family... To YOU? Are you Freggin Serious?.. the same person who is selling ringtones and t-shirts... You want ME.. to donate money to help move YOU and your family because you are TERRIFIED to live in that apartment now that your SISTER was attacked. I'm curious.. were you TERRIFIED when you were standing outside your apartment doing the SECOND interview about how happy you were with your new found celebrity?  You didn't appear scared at all then.. HOMEBOY.. I'm just saying.. if you are gonna lie to me.. at LEAST make me want to believe you..

How is it that you have the NERVE to ask people to help you MOVE.. but you haven't said a word about a REWARD for any information on your sister's attacker.. HERO? Really... ? I think NOT.. You are what they call an opportunist. def. One who takes advantage of any opportunity to achieve an end, often with no regard for principles or consequences. Sounds about right to me.. I know people are going to bash me for my opinion but I HONESTLY.. don't give a flying fuck.. just like he doesn't about his sister or capturing an attempted rapist.. You were so happy to tell us to Hide our kids.. and Hide the wives and husbands.. THEN.. but now you are just talking about your T shirt line.. Sorry.. can't support Bullshit.. Won't do it.. So you will just have to do without my 10 or 12 bucks or however much you are selling those shirts for.. I'll wait until someone with some sense puts out a reward for the capture of this idiot or donate it to survivors of rape... I'm more concerned with my children and that precious niece of yours you were holding on camera the 2nd time being SAFE.. than making you a reality star..

When these 15 mins are up.. you will be just another joke.. like the rest of the people the media exploited and throw away once they got tired of you.. Kinda like they did with HAMMER and VANILLA ICE... and William Hung.. remember HIM....








ijs...

PODUNK, ALABAMA..Huh? urgh.. Stuff on my mind..

So.. with the latest craze about the young lady who was apparently attacked in her home Wednesday and her brother making a big splash on YOUTUBE, FACEBOOK, Twitter and even VH1's Best Week ever..  I have to say.. I am really getting sick of this mess. It's bad enough that I live in the city where this mess happened but dang.. the news station are making it worse by revisiting *MY BOI* 2 days later..  Being a survivor of an attack.. it's kinda pissing me off because this is so NOT a game. I am not in anyway saying that she was not attacked by someone.. but the way it happened and the way it's being explained *_* .. * eh.. who knows* I'm not here to judge her because people are doing that enough..

What I am going to say is.. it's bad enough that Toine acted the way he did.. and all the remixes, t shirts and ringtones are coming out.. but we also have racist posting their own version of what's going on.. Now, all of a sudden we are all from PO DUNK, AL (where ever the hell that is) and we are all these country bunkins that are the butt of jokes all over the country. I honestly think this is going to do more harm in the long run than good. If she was really attacked, the attacker will be the next star.. He will be the reason behind the *HOMEBOY* craze.. 

Are they gonna remix him being arrested, if he is ever caught ... because as she says.. "she KNOWS he's in L.P"... See, Comments like that are what make people not believe her.. How would you know he was in L.P. if you have Never seen him before? How did he know to pick YOUR room as opposed to Toine's room? People are going to draw their own conclusions but I look at facts. Maybe it's because I want to be in the Criminal Justice field.. or that I'm a survivor.. I don't know.. but the FACTS ... that WE the public have been given aren't adding up to me? If it's a lie.. I'm gonna really be ticked off because the credibility of all survivors will be shot to hell... It's hard enough getting people to believe you when you were ACTUALLY attacked... but to lie just to get 15 mins. of fame.. Come on Son.. That's bogus as hell..
It will be interesting to see how this all plays out because again as Toine said.. he was Meant to be on SOMEBODY'S T.V. so what will happen next. .. *red flags everywhere*

I love my city.. even with the foolishness .. this is where I was born and raised and Really don't like all of us being judged by the idiotic comments made by these people.. I want more evidence.. I want to know the outcome of the fingerprints? Did they fingerprint any other area in the house to see if they were other places OUTSIDE of what they told us? Where is the blood or cuts from the mirror where she was tossed around as she says.. Three people rolling around in broken mirrors and NO ONE has as much as a band aid on.. REALLY?

Okay, I'm getting off subject because this is some pure bat guano but I just want you the public to know.. that Not ALL Black people from Huntsville, AL act like Toine and Kelly. We aren't Country bunkins.. We are Human just like you all.. I would bet MONEY that there are some iggnit ( yes I spelled it like that on purpose) people roaming around in your streets too.. So before you judge ALABAMA or the SOUTH and start asking stupid ass questions like where is MASSA and if we still have WHITE ONLY bathrooms.. just remember.. you got some creatures that crawl out the damn woodwork in yo city too.. This really has nothing to do with them being Black.. ( let us not forget the STRUTTIN THAT ASS video), not to me anyway.. What this IS about is having a little self respect, just a little common sense, and maybe a LONG look in the mirror.. IJS.. (I'm just saying)

Suicide for Dummies?? WOW

Okay.. so I'm watching Law and Order one night right.. The episode is about kids committing suicide for FUN. Well, on the show there was a guy running a website to connect and teach people how to do it. They took him to court and he was charged with 4 counts of Manslaughter..
So, the BONES in me ( My mama calls me that) decides to look on the web to see if there is actually a website that teaches you how to commit suicide. Well ..... you guessed it... there is ..
WTF is this world coming too? Now I know a few people that would want to take out right about now but damn... a website that tells you how to do it? I thought it was just bullshit... but after reading this one called suicide for dummies... man!
if you want to see it.. this is the link...http://www.ubersite.com/m/38329
Even if this was posted as a joke, what happens if someone actually follow through with taking their own life due to the information listed on these sites? There are some truly unstable people in the world that could possibly take this stuff to heart.
I think back to that guy that labeled HIMSELF as a pediphile and built a website dedicated to the children he had been stalking. Although he says he never touched any of these children would he had video taped and posted on the site... who's to say someone else didn't because they recognized them?
So my QOTD is..
Do you believe the net should be censored?
Just wondering?