Right now I'm listening to his old radio station WJAB 90.9 Fm http://www.aamu.edu/wjab/ They are jammin.. Frankie Beverly and Maze.. one of my daddy's favorites..
My father was one of the founding members of that station.. Back in 1991, I was in high school and he would drop me off.. and head up to the station and be there until I got out of school if not later.. It's amazing how many people listened to him.. and know his voice.. There are a LOT of babies made from listening to the man with the velvety voice... I would listen to him going to sleep and it just would make me blush cause he thought he was sooo cool.. ( And he was) .. What a lot of people didn't know is that not only was he a wonderful announcer but he could also sing like Barry White.. I use to Love to listen to him sing while he ironed his clothes.. Creases so dang sharp they could cut diamonds..
I have friends from elementary school who remember his GTO.. Midnight Blue.. God I hated that car in school.. It was LOUD ..but the more I thought about it.. and helped him work on it I grew to Love it.. and I wish I knew where it was now.. I would drive that damn car til the wheels fell off.. All the boys loved to see him pull up.. but they never wanted to see him get out.. cause he didn't play when it came to me.. *that ain't what ya want Pat'na* hahahaaa ask some of my exs..
I don't really know why I'm bloggin .. and I know ya'll don't wanna hear all this .. but I just don't want to forget where I am right now.. Sitting here, in my yellow *WHATEVER* t shirt..with his straw hat on.. (which I will be wearing to the funeral .. I don't care what nobody says ... that's my daddy's ) I think I'm doing pretty ... *kayne shrug*.. .I've laughed alot.. and I've had my moments where I just have 3 second.. crying spells.. I just gotta get it out.. because I don't know what the hell to do with myself right now..
I know people want to be here for me and make sure that I ear and rest and all that.. And I love them for it.. But.. I guess yesterday I just really needed time to breathe.. My phone wouldn't stop ringing.. My texts were BANANAS.. My Mama is soooo connected to me that she was completely outta wack.. I love it and I hate it all at the same time.. Why... because I really feel the love that she and ALL of you are showing me.. I'm truly not use to this.. But I hate it because I feel like a burden and at times I feel like I just want the world to walk away...
I'm rambling..
But I will say this.. I haven't had to deal with any foolishness yesterday.. (negative anyway) but.. what I see starting to happen is that people from my past who TRULY need to stay in my past are resurfacing.. I recieved a call yesterday from someone I was very close to and although I don't think it will go past that phone call ... it was still very cool to talk to her.. and she knows who she is..
But thhheennn there are these other MF's that KNOW.. not to speak to me for the REST of your days.. who are sending me invites on FB... *_*... GO away.. I don't want you around.. I don't care if you have been here before.. GO AWAY before there is some SERIOUS furniture Moved.. I don't need FAKE NUTHING around me right now.. and that is some str8 BAT GUANO! You can send me a message but you don't need to know my every move from here on out.. *URGH*
Well.. let me go .. they are bringing that book for people to sign and all that.. Life doesn't stop .. so.. I'll be back to blog again later...
