Today's topic is ... Something you LOVE about yourself..
Funny, the first thing to come to mind is... the very thing that I said I hated yesterday..My heart.. I don't know if that's in the rules... but it is what it is.. I love that I'm not a selfish person. If I see someone in need.. why SHOULDN'T I help them. I remember once that I was craving Chinese food.. chicken and broccoli.. I went up to my favorite Cat & dog restaurant...New China.. and got me some food.. When I pulled up in the parking lot.. I saw some people going up to people's cars talking to people. I didn't know what they were talking about a the time cause I was on the phone yapping about God only knows what with my sister Kali..
Well when I came out.. the woman approached me and asked if I had any money for her and her friends to get something to eat.. I had money but I also know that some of those people don't always use the money for what they say they are going to use it for... So.. instead of giving her money.. I handed her my food.. She looked at me funny and said... "you are just GIVING me this".. My reply was.. "You said you were hungry right? So Eat.." She had this weird look on her face and said Thank you... it was genuine to me.. but that was not what I did it for. I always look at people like that.. and remember a time when I didn't have.. I lived out of my then boyfriend's truck or in a hotel when I had the money to do so.. I didn't have to beg for food to feed my children.. but I wasn't far from it.. That could have been me.. So, I did what I would want someone to do for my children...
anyway,... I went back in the restaurant and ordered my food again.. and there was a woman inside talking to her friend. She said she wouldn't have been crazy enough to give those people anything to eat.. why can't they get a job.. It kinda pissed me off.. My friend Stephanie Love has a saying.. "Don't count my money for me.." and I completely understand what she means.. Don't you worry about why and what I do with my money.. It will not make or break your day so worry about YOU.. Ya'll know I gave her the evil eye and dared her to say it TO me.. but of course.. people LOVE to talk .. but never have anything to say when you are standing in your face... (LAMES)
Well, I got my food.. still on the phone chatting away about these chics in here worrying about MY business.. Kali was telling me not to even trip because they were Less than worthy of my anger.. *she was right*.. I walked out and bid them a good day which just burned their Biscuits.. got in my car and backed out.. As I hit the corner.. I saw the same lady.. with two other men.. eating the food that I had given them. They begin to wave and thank me again.. But my heart was already full because I followed my heart and did what I felt was right..
Yes, I get burned .. ALOT.. by ALOT of people.. because I do things from my heart and never ask for anything in return.. Even last night at church, the pastor said.. not every good deed was a GOD deed.. Meaning.. some people will bleed you dry because they KNOW you have a good heart.. I know that feeling ALL too well. But I'm gonna continue to do what I feel is right for those that I feel need my help. I may die a fool.. but there are much worse things that I could die being.. Feel me..
You only live once.. and nobody gets out alive anyway.. so you may as well live doing good deeds rather than to die doing nothing....
