Day 11: Follow me ...

hmmm.. the thing I get complimented on the most lately... is my walk.


I don't exactly know what to say about it.. But.. I have a good one obviously.. because I have been selected to walk in several fashion shows over the past year. THEFashion Show was the first time I had really *WALKED* in well over a decade. Stephaine Love is who I thank for that. Because of the opportunity she gave me to walk in THEFashion .. I was later selected to audition for the ROCK THE RUNWAY Fashion show for Radar Magazine.   I was soo nervous because, just like with THEFashion Show, there were so many super thin, super YOUNG, beautiful girls trying out.. They could walk in these ridiculously high heels.. and wear just about anything you put on them.. And here I am.. short cut, thick waistline, bad knees.. hahaaa..

but hell.. I was there so .. no turning back now right..

I walk in.. and there is Steph with that.. * Get em Girl* look on her face.. They put on some music with this lil Ipod thingy.. and Usher's OMG came on... I just gave it to em.. if they liked it .. they liked it.. if not.. at least I tried right...  Well little did I know that I was being judged by one of the hottest new designers out ... J.Bolin.. I did my walk and waited for THE CALL.  The day that we were suppose to get them.. I didn't get one.. I was disappointed because I thought I did pretty good.. but I was thinking that my weight and over all LOOK ...knocked me out of the running... It was cool.. I was happy for any of the girls who would receive calls..  I ain't no hater..

But the next morning.. my phone rang.. I said hello... and the person on the other end started talking.. about the show.. I thought they were calling to tell me thanks but no thanks.. Instead.. they told me that they were following my stat on FB where I said I didn't get the call..and I was a lil sad..  Mr. J asked me how I thought I did.. and I said I thought I did well.. and he said... we did TOO.. that's  why you are in the show... I really tried to keep my cool.. but I think I lost some points... In the parking lot of the drug store in front of the police.. on the phone... driving... jumping up and down in my seat... Lucky that I didn't get a ticket.. *doing WAY too Much*

Well.. when we had the fitting.. I went out in the hall to walk again for some designers.. but unfortunately.. I was bigger than most of the girls so there wasn't alot of things for me to wear.. I only had 2 outfits but.. *F.. It.. I was gonna still WORK *

We get to the show and there is J.Bolin.. He was such a nice guy.. But he walked up to me and said.. " I know you ... you got a BAD walk.. why didn't I see you last night for a fitting.. you don't wanna wear my clothes?" He was joking but totally serious and I think that was the BEST compliment I had received in my life.. This man has designed clothes for grammy award winning artist, models, you name it..  and here he was standing next to me.. asking me to wear one of his designs.. *FLOORED*.. He is the nicest guy.. and everyone in his camp is.. just down to Earth good people.. so it meant alot to me for him to say that..

A few minutes later.. his assistant said.. J would like to see you in the back.. I think I beat HER back there.. We talked about me being a plus size model and there not being anything really for me to wear.. and he stopped me and said.. You have a bad walk.. it doesn't matter WHAT size you are.. but please do not refer to yourself as PLUS SIZE anymore .. You are SIZE SEXY... hear me?... :)

yep.. Loud and clear...



His compliment.. made a world of difference to me.. He probably doesn't even remember me at all but I will never forget HIM..

Thanks J. Bolin..

Walkin my WALK.... :)